I just spent the Memorial Day Holiday weekend with my kids and their families. This caused me to reflect on my journey as a parent. As a mom, I have the tendency to be very critical of my parenting skills and abilities. This opens the door to the enemy to fuel my insecurities and doubts making me feel hopeless, as if the mistakes I have made will have a permanent negative impact on my kids. I have been far from a perfect mother and my example of how to live your life has been less than stellar. My anxiety, defensive stance, low self-esteem and insecurity made me the “feared” parent when compared to my fun loving hubby. I look at my kids now and see the things I unintentionally handed down to them.
My daughter: the fear and dread of the worst case scenario of all circumstances.
My son: the comfort zone of familiarity and the fear of change. Also his impatience.
My two adopted sons: the inability to accept themselves for who they are, as I focused so desperately on the need to conform them to our family standards.
I could stay focused on the negative traits I passed along or I can change my perspective, turn on the light and illuminate the truth of who God says my kids can become!
Proverbs 22:6 ” Train up a child in the way he should go and when he is old he will not depart from it”
I see my daughter with the gift from God to minister to wounded children through therapy. She brings the light of Jesus to a dark world, while a child is young and impressionable; possibly being the only chance at light they may ever have. What an awesome responsibility!
I see my son who was gifted with the spirit of compassion; with a heart and giving spirit that I am in awe of. A Godly young man who plays drums in his church praise band and will be the spiritual leader of his family.
As for my two adopted sons (although completely disconnected from our family) I choose to believe are on their own personal journey; still in the hands of the God who directed them to my path in the first place. My obedience to take them in and plant the seed was fulfilled.
Romans 9:21 ” Does not the potter have power over the clay, from the same lump to make one vessel for honor and another for dishonor?”
Psalms 127:3-4 ” Behold children are a heritage from the Lord, the fruit of the womb is a reward; like arrows in the hand of a warrior, so are the children of our youth”
Children are a precious gift from God; but they are God’s. He loves them more than we will ever be capable of loving them. His love is greater than we can ever imagine or comprehend. When we loose sight of this we screw things up and unintentionally hinder our kids from being all they can be! Your sole responsibility is to raise your kids in a God centered home, showing them the way to a blessed life. That is where your responsibility ends and theirs begins. You cannot force your desires on your children. God gave us all free will, including our kids. They have to make the choice to follow God or take their own path.
Love your children as God designed you to; but never forget whose they are. Nurture, encourage and guide them to be who God created them to be!
Psalms 139:14 ” I will praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; marvelous are your works and that my soul knows very well”